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What do you do when you have to raise your parents? When your mother has the coping capabilities of a teenager, and your father the common sense of a rock. What do you do when they get divorced, and then you’re stuck in the middle? Or when you father remarries and your mother hasn’t moved on, because 25 years is a heck of a long time. How do you tell your mother you see the poison in her but you know the good in her is much more? How do you tell your dad he’s an insensitive bastard, but that you love him so much? Lastly, how do you not let the negative parts of them ferment and grow in you? Family can be so extremely complicated and convoluted that it may seem easier just to run. But you can’t run because you know if you do….that would be the straw the broke the camel’s back.
Sometimes we find ourselves in a situation that has ended a relationship not our own. The ghosts of past relationships seem to haunt a home or a bed or maybe you fear the other persons mind, a ghost that is only as real as your imagination will allow it to be. Or say for instance that ghost is a very real tangible thing, then what? Well then I suppose you live with it, accept it, and give it no more thought then you would the action of opening a door. These two questions are on repeat in my mind, “is this really different ?” and “am I really different?”. Answers can be given for these questions but these answers are never fact. Like emotion these are opinion based. I take note that when asked these questions myself a sure answer resounds out of my heart through my chest up my vocal chords and out of my mouth, or in some cases fingers. If you let the questions get the best of you, if you can not clear your mind of doubt then you are not living. Let go.